Looking all the way back 2011

I can truly say na it has been a very fruitful and productive year for me. And now I'm excited to actually reminisce all the happy memories I've been through, starting on how I spend my New Year's Eve last year:

SPELL ALONE O.,O

Oo! Para kunyare masayahin pa rin yung gabi na yan habang nag-iisa ako sa bahay, AKO AY NAG-RED. Red LAHAT. Red na blanket, na aso, na damit, na pajama, na placemat. Tapos naka-polka dots pa ko jan. Na-teary eyed pa ko nung gabi na yan kase ang saya saya sa New York Square (na napanuod ko lang sa TV), habang sa neighborhood namin, parang halloween. Sana nandun na lang ako. Pero anyway, tinulog ko na lang.

And I think that was truly a great start, yung pagsuot ko ng pula at polkadots, dahil sobrang naging productive at exciting ang buong taon ko. Di ako magkanda-ugaga. Ako ay jupiter happy (nagtatatalon pa) dahil:

For the first time, I baked a cake

I met new friend on the blogsphere

  

I was able to have a small part time job in LA

Tapos that dagat-dagatan adventure with my Mom

I learned how to drive.

I made paper cranes for Japan

I had a date with my Dad.

and a date with my Mom at the Universal Studio, Hollywood.

Secretely gone home

Nakasama ko ulit si Mayk, teary eyed

I reunite with my SUNSHOTS.

Celebrate birthdays with my brothers.

celebratr birthdays with the Happy Tree Friends.

Celebrated our 6th Year together.

At ang saya, I'm with him for his birthday.

Then, for the first time I attend a toy con.

Then meet my Makati friends again

I actually fished and hooked a tilapia. Lol.

Then host some events for our school.

I Met NEW friends to play with at school

I reunite with my coolitz family.

I reunite with my childhood friends.

Attend a party at Bliss.

Wear two-piece swimsuit, di ba? tibay at lakas ng loob!!??

Then light a Flying Lantern on 11.11.11

And finally have our Moby.

Thank you 2011 for being so good to me. I know along the way hindi naman pwedeng naging masaya lang ako. Marami ding hurts and pain, pero iba talaga yung mas binibilang mo eh yung mga blessings instead na yung mga negatives.

Thank you Lord for surrounding my life with wonderful people. Naging part sila ng life ko at ng 2011 ko and hopefully mas marami pa sila maging papel sa buhay ko. Thank you for helping me grow and thank you for giving me reasons to live my life.

All these simple events in my life makes me feel that I am truly living.

Farewell 2011!!! <3 <3 <3 You had been a blessed year for me!

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The Best Memory of 2011: Surprise! I'm home!

I Actually thought that leaving the Philippines was a great story, but when I flew back, it was even a greater one.

It was a mixed emotion of happiness, excitement and anxiety.

I love the flight. It's the sight of a vast sky that caught me stranded in amazement.



No one knows I was about to go home, except for my brothers who's gonna pick me up on the airport. So keeping the secret all by myself makes the flight back home more incredibly heart beating.

When I got in our old Honda civic, I was the feelingerang galing ibang bansa. Ang INIT!

I do remember now, as we get out of the airport. The streets crowded with people crossing just about anywhere. The Traffic that the buses would do just to get a passenger. And more crowded people. Nothing really change.

One hour pass and now I'm on my way to see this one person I've been rooting to see ever since I board the plane. That one person. Ang special mo ah! My one and only, Maykel.

And I don't know if he's at work or if he had already gone home, and the worst part of this is that I don't have a phone to know! O.O

So I just randomly guess maybe he's at work at Shaw Blvd. I got there and I ask this girl (which I'm guessing is a training staff) if she could ask her Manager if [My boyfriend's whole name] is actually on duty. It is just simple, if YES, I'll wait. If NO, I'll go straight to their house.

But she said, "Wala daw po nagttrabahong [My boyfriend's whole name] dito."


So ano? Nag-resign? Hahahaha! But I'm definitely sure he's still working there. So I waited for 15 minutes before I took my ass out of there to make sure he's not really there and then ride a jeepney to their house.

I wasn't able to prepare myself that people would be shock to see me, I was too excited to do so. So I was also shocked when they all go hysterical about my presence on the doorstep and they were like, "Ha? Kala ko nasa ibang bansa ka?" And they all start shouting for my boyfriend's name, calling him to get out and see me.

My boyfriend told me that he was sloughing off the idea, he thought that maybe his relatives have poor eyesight and  that maybe his surprise visit was just one of his classmates in college mistaken to be me.

*Okay this was the best of the best of this memory*

People are all surprised and I felt like a superstar at a moment. He was already up to see who it was. I was hiding. But he stopped, and I popped my head, still hiding my body, and now I can't explain how he looked like when I saw him that instance, but it was accurately something like this --->

He was like just standing there for a moment, and I was like laughing my hearts out at him. (This is why I love surprises because I love funny faces). He has the most ripley's believe it or not face I had ever seen!!!

Then another seconds passed and I though he had stopped breathing so I had to show my whole body to say that it's really me!! And he walked to me, and I'm not sure what happened next. He was all teary and he still can't believe I was there beside him. And I was wearing shorts, so I most likely looked like I just got from some inuman jan lang sa kanto o sa tabi-tabi. Kaya nakakatawa.

It was worth the trip to go home and see him again. I can't even explain in short sentences how I did really missed him! I totally did! And now that I'm with him, I'm that selfish bitch that want him to be always just to be by my side throughout the whole two years that I would be staying here to study. Haha. Kidding.

:) I love you M-A-Y-K-E-L. You heard what I spelled! <3




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Worst Memory of 2011: Every obstacle is an opportunity.

Trying to remember the worst thing that had happen to me this year is a very difficult task. Maybe because bad things eventually become suppressed inside. So what I did here was I had to open my old blogs and read my online diary, and *poof*, it is spelling in details the worst of me this year.

I thought at first that my worst memory was the moments that I was always alone at our house during my stay in the states. My Mom is always leave-in as a nurse assistant, so she stays on her work 24 hrs a day and goes home once a week. I am so lonely I just wanna go home and spend my fats sweating in the Philippines.

Another worst thing was that I felt duper ugly! I ate that whole jar of Nutella in just a month and *boom* it gave me tons of zits in my forehead (or not, I'm not really sure what's the etiology of my zits). That was very unhealthy! Plus the fact that I gain weight more than you could imagine. (But all is well now, except the weight).



But really, when you start believing that the world does not revolve you anymore, you see clearly, and self-pity is just another minor problem compare to the hurts and the pain you cause other people.




So having this thinking I realize, the worst part of my year was actually leaving my Mom in the states. Once again, she's alone on her own, working and sacrificing for us. Not that I regret going home here in the Philippines, but leaving her there have so many stories underneath.

I was not aware when I was about to board the plane, but now, I think I can remember how her face looks awfully sad back then. I was the one enjoying the good part of this before I realized that I actually left her.

I realized that that one thing she couldn't resist to do was to give what I want eventually. She doesn't want to see me go, but she did let me go for my sake.


But leaving my Mom there is a bigger responsibility for me than you could ever imagine. Sometimes it means standing and deciding again on my own, but mostly it just means studying well and getting back there impregnated and get work and have a better career than others and make lots of money that hopefully would make everybody happy in the end.

I was against being rich (though I wouldn't mind  if I could be). I am pro-simple life and my Mom knows that. I would rather spend quality time with my family so that I can see the best of them as they grow, rather spend hours of time at work to receive a large amount of salary each month.

Maybe part of what really hurt of just staying there (or going back there in the U.S.) is the hurt of leaving my boyfriend here in the Philippines. But the sacrifices that I would be willing to make is no equal compare to what my Mom has gone through already. There are more to thank rather to regret. For one, I was an educated person because of that large amount of salary.

I DECIDED, I love my Mom, my Dad, my brothers so much, I'm gonna go back there and just hope for the best that that decision could bring.

Finally, the worst part was over (and I had almost forgot about it), and what's really important is I tried to learn from it. I try to grow up, rather just get old out of it.



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Busy ba talaga?

I'm not sure what I'm gonna post today. Madami na akong kwentong nalagpasan dahil sobrang ang arte ko. Lagi ko sinasabi na busy ako!! PAANONG hindi magiging busy, eh hindi na ako nagsisimba?! Ayan tuloy, all of these things happening with my life eh nakaka-distress. Hay.. sorry talaga Lord. Alam ko naman eh, aware naman ako eh, na the more na wala akong time sayo, the more na mawawalan akong time sa mga importanteng bagay.
May planner nga ako na bago, pero hindi pa rin naman ma-organize-organize ang aking life!
Hay, alam ko! Tapos na ang pasko, and I have to finish a lot of things before the NEW YEAR comes! Hala! At isa na dun ang pag-gawa ng New Year's Resolution.
Task:

• Finish the lecture video for our research.
• Answer & Rationale for our Pedia take home exam.
• Revision of our research drafts.
• Magbasa naman kahit konting ANATOMY lang oh.
• Organize my review stuffs.

Kung maririnig mo lang yung malalim kong bugtong hininga dito... HAYY!

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Minsan may way talaga si Lord para pasayahin ako, at ito yun

Dear Diary,

Lagi kong sinusubukang isipin na lahat ng bagay may reason bakit nangyayari. Or kung wala, lahat ng masasamang pangyayari may kapalit na maganda.

Kanina papunta pa lang ng MOA, wala na kameng masakyang taxi. Madami kase kame. Huggard. May kasama kameng mga bata at aso. Ayaw kame isakay ng mga taxi. Kaya napilitan kameng mag-jeep at mag-jeep hanggang MOA.

Anyway. Surprise surprise sa MOA dahil bongga ang people. To the highest level! Ang dami dami dami dami!! Pasko nga kase! Ewan ko, madami siguro gusto mag-waldas ng pera, lahat walang pasok. One and half oras kame ni Mayk naghihintay sa labas ng hypermarket dahil bumili ng ma-chichi-cha ang mama ni Mayk at mga siblings niya sa loob. Pero dahil sangdamakmak ang tao sa MOA, inabot ng syam syam ang pagbabayad pa lang ng mga pinamili.

Pumunta kame sa sea side para lumanghap ng malansang hangin, sana sa Luneta na lang namin naisipang tumambay. Nakaka-stress, hindi nakaka-enjoy dahil sobrang daming tao. Block buster ang mga comfort room, hindi na sila comforting. Kaya mga ilang minuto lang, nag decide na kameng umuwi.

Badtrip na ko kase wala na kame napala, tapos ngayon wala pa kameng masakyan pauwi at hindi ko alam san nanggagaling yung mga tao, parang lalong dumadami sila. In short, as in, hagod sa muscles, nag-bus, nag-jeep, nag-jeep kame pauwi. Di ko na maintindihan, hussle, huggard, basta pagod na pagod kameng lahat.

Basta, medjo dinaan na lang sa joke ang kabadtripan, pero the feeling stays within. Lol. Pero alam mo yung unhappy talaga, sobrang sulk, pero.. kaso.. yun nga... kase... ^_____^ biglang BUMUNGAD sa kin ang mention... ang mention na yun... napawi lahat.. nag-clear... hindi ko ma-describe... hindi na unhappy, cancelled na ang appointment na yun, SALAMAT sa kanya.. matutulog na ako ng may ngiti sa labi. <3

Love,

Kamila

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Happy Christmas Day!

My contest is still on till December 31, 2011 and everyone are still welcome to join HERE.

Anyhoo! Guys! Wala na akong ibang wish kundi sana lahat ay ma-happy! Ma-super HAPPY! <3 Ang general masyado noh? Sige na nga! Gusto ko ng bagong MP3! Lol! Hindi joke lang. Medjo half joke.

Christmas is my most favorite season of the year! As in! I appreciate all the christmas lights and the christmas songs surrounding the world every time this moment comes! Sobrang thick ng ngiti ko all day long during Christmas month! And I so specially love to give gifts during this season! Ang happy!

Although I wont be having my Mom & my Dad na super duper miss ko na pareho, gusto ko pa rin malaman nila na masaya ako. Thankful ako for all the blessings that I've been having and that is all because of their sacrfices! Love you Mama & Dadi! <3 Along with my brothers! I love you guys!

I hope ang lahat ay mabusog sa kanya-kanya nating Noche Buena!!! And I hope you guys enjoy the night to the coolest degree!!

And to my BFF, Papa Jesus!

Thank you for all the blessings that you have brought into my life! Thank you for this day that you were born! Wag mo po sana isipin na nakalimutan ko na all of this celebration is for you just because I didn't attend all the simbang gabi. Pero yun nga, Papa Jesus! I still love you from the endless bottom of my heart! Thank you sa lahat lahat lahat!! Happy Birthday!! Hmwuah! Love you!

Love, 

Kamila

MERRY CHRISTMASSS!!!!! <3

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Holiday Greeting Contest

The Holiday is fast approaching, grabe muntik ko na makalimutan yung Christmas give away ko. Sorry guys! Pero ito na nga.. mamimigay na ako ng gift. Kung may mga overseas man na gusto sumali... kung mananalo kayo, I have to send your gift sa mga representative niyo dito sa Pinas, because I'm just a student who don't have much money to send packages abroad, I hope you guys understand. Weeeehhh :)

Who can join:
Pretty much everybody na may FACEBOOK account. May blog ka man o wala, okay lang.
Ang mapapanalunan:

• SECOND PRIZE: A Life Collection Notebook. This is good for those people who loves to write. At dahil tingin ko lahat naman ng mahilig mag-blog eh mahilig magsulat, I guess this suite everybody here. The pages of the notebook consist of different random designs na nakakaaliw. Kung mapapansin ng iba na matagal ko na kakilala, ito rin dapat yung ipapamigay ko sa naudlot kong contest sa dati kong blog. Anyway, I have to give this na bago pa mabulok sa cabinet ko.

• FIRST PRIZE: I'm Not Only Coffee Cup Tumbler. Super cute ng cup na ito at KAYO agad ang naisip kong pag-bigyan. This is a cup na nagsasabi na hindi lang siya suitable sa Coffee, but you could also pour in here water, milk, juice, tea, beer or whatever! Hindi ko alam san gawa toh, pero mukha siyang matibay, may frog na design na may hawak na cherry at basta iba pang characteristic na kunyari ika-eegangganyo mo sumali pag sinabi ko.

How to join:
Una, leave a comment na gusto niyong sumali on this post including your: 

• Name, 
• Blog Url (kung meron), 
• Contact (either twitter, fb account or e-mail address where I can easily contact you) 

Pangalawa, go here---> facebook page. Like the page and then post your HOLIDAY GREETINGS dun sa wall. Make sure that you are greeting my BLOG not me or any other person in particular, JUST the BLOG!! There are only two ways to greet, ito ay through words or through pictures niyo (as in kayo yung nasa picture with a hand written greetings). Kayo na bahala maging creative just make sure the name of my blog is included with the greetings. In short, pagandahan lang ng greetings toh.
Pangatlo, you're totally kasali! Ang saya-saya! At pwede pa kayo mag-invite ng iba pang tao to join too!

Iba pang bagay na feeling ko kailangan ko sabihin:

• You can still join on or before December 31, 2011.
• Dalawa lang ang mananalo sa contest na ito. Second Prize (yung notebook) and First Prize (yung Tumbler cup) lang.
• The decision kung sino ang mananalo ay manggaling lang sa boto ng mga sumusunod kong kaibigan:

Ace, Abi, Mayk, Ako, Jep and Mj
SO hindi ko alam kung may iba pa akong nakalimutang sabihin!!! Weeeehhhh!! I love Christmas!!! Merry Christmas sa lahat!! <3 <3 <3 At SALI NA KAYO!!!!**********

I don't need to BLAH! BLAH! BLAH! everything

Bad things will eventually go away, but first, we should learn how to let it go. 

Regression. Napansin ko talaga na bumalik yung ugali ko dati na ang bilis mabadtrip. Siguro mga highschool day yun nung ganun ako. May sense na naman ng pagka-bossy kase na namamagitan sa kin at sa mga tao sa paligid ko. Ang pinagkaiba lang sa dati at ngayon, dati hindi ako masyado maka-move on, yung kabadtripan ko sisirain na nun buong araw ko, tapos yung maliit na bagay pinapalaki ko. Ngayon, medjo mas madali na ko maka-recover.
I've been better. I now my side of the story and I stick to it without a complete plan of advertising it. Hindi ako para maghanap ng kakampi, child's game. Ngayon, problema na yan ng tao if they looked at just one side of the story. I don't need to BLAH! BLAH! BLAH! everything, just because I self-pity myself in the situation, the world does not revolve around me, and I'm aware of it. Masyado tayo nag-ggrieve sa idea na kinawawa tayo, na unfair satin, eh ano naman di ba? Why make such a big fuss about tiny little things? Ano bang mapapala sa ganun? Wala naman eh. Eh di instead of doing so, why not just waste our energy on sharing the HAPPINESS, hindi yung puro bigat ng loob. Di ba? Why not waste time being positive and optimistic? Nakahawa ka na ng smile, napasaya mo pa sarili mo.
Not that we're gonna suppress all the sad feelings we've been through, pwede naman eh, in a less narcissistic way nga lang. We are growing old, but let's make sure we're growing up. Yung pinaka-giant step kase dito na ang hirap gawin is just to LET IT GO, forgive and let it go.
Pero no, we choose to let the hurts and the pain settle in. We rehearse every bits of it every days of our lives. Minsan naka-move on na yung ibang tao na involve sa situation, ikaw hindi pa, sino lamang?
I would rather suggest the following ways para mas madali tayo mag move-on at mag let go:
First, leave it all to God. Ipaubaya mo na sa kanya ang lahat ng nararamdaman mo, at ipaubaya mo na din sa kanya yung nararamdaman mong sama ng loob sa ibang tao. Not that you wish for the bad ng kaaway mo, but God has his way, and we should trust his way.
Second, stop rehearsing it, instead, find ways to ease the feeling of hurt. The more you contemplate with it, the more na magiging restless ka. Huwag mo ding hayaang gatungan ka pa ng ibang tao, lalo ka lang mang-gigigil. Better way to do this is to just joke about it.
Third, there's always a reason and purpose. Wala ng ibang tao ang magkukumbinsi sayo na may iba pang dahilan kaya nangyayari ang mga presently nangyayari sayo. You'll just have to wait. Isipin mo lang na this is just a way to mold you to be strong or to prepare you to a much greater purpose. Sometimes kase this bad things is the key for better things to come. Maiisip mo din, "Buti na lang nangyari toh, kung hindi.. wala ako ngayon sa kinatatayuan ko.." Isa pa, sabi nga sa Happy Feet 2, "Every obstacle is an opportunity.."  This is an opportunity to grow.
Fourth, put your feet on that somebody's shoes. Isipin mo, bakit kaya niya nagawa yun at napakalaking bagay ba yun para ikagalit ko? Mamatay ba ko, now na, pag hindi ko siya napatawad? Baka OA lang ako.
Fifth, try to make yourself happy. Kung love mo talaga ang sarili mo, let it go. Tinotorture mo lang ang sarili mo sa mga bagay na wala naman ikaw mapapala. 
I actually hate false account on me, when people looked at me wrong when they actually don't know the truth. But then, whenever that thing happens to me, ito yung list na toh ang fino-follow ko. Malamang nabasa ko lang sa libro, di ko sure. I felt good afterwards and everything seems fine again. Try it and let me know if its useful as it was to me.
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Christmas Wish List

Hello Christmas! Alam ko.. feel na feel ko naman ang Pasko. With all the Christmas lights na nagkalat ba naman sa buong kanto, parang mga (ano bang tawag dun?) yung mga nakasabit pag-fiesta? Di ko alam. Lol. Kaso I'm so tamadism pa rin. Ang dami ko dapat asikasuhin na hindi ko maasikaso kase lagi akong tulog. Wahihihihi. Nagiging super pasaway na me. Tulog, kaen, tulog, kaen. No doubt naman di ba? Sa size ng belly ko?
Well... Kahit na ganun, ito pa rin, dahil magsisimbang gabi na, na-feel ko na kailangan ko na gumawa ng Christmas Wish List. Bongga, hindi masyado realistic naiisip ko... pero ito nga yung mga yun:

SLR camera, Canon, kahit yung maliit lang.

Net book, mini laptop, TOSHIBA (pero Hp yung nakuha kong pic, lol)

Uhhmmm..... bagong back pack

Fruit cake, madami!!

New pair of glasses, yung tama na sa mata ko

Makakaen na ulit ng nutella pero wag magka-pimples

manuod ng maraming Family Guy

ganitong shoessss

Umulan sana ng Leche Flan!!!

AT madaming foooddss!

konti noh? Lol!!! <3**********