Puyat

So much going on with my mind right now. Ito ba ang resulta ng triple venti.

First, so much complaints about the requirements para sa clearance ng board exam review na nangyayari sa school. I know my mistakes for not taking lectures and not attending one fucking day of this review. But TOO MUCH will kill. Ang super OA naman kase ng mga punishments. Parang hello? Magiging topnotcher ba ko kapag ginawa ko toh?

Pero, setting complaints aside, sige na nga, ano bang laban ko? Sana lang may basis yung pag-didisiplina. On my opinion, hindi naman din ako natutulungan. Imbis na focus sa review, stress.

I hate you from the bottom of my heart, yun lang. Don't take it to much though.

Then next, I miss someone. Miss na rin naman siya ng lahat. La lang. I don't know if I can talk about this or if I am the right person to talk about this. Nagsisimula pa lang kase ako maging totally close sa new sets of friends ko na ito, nang biglang, *poof* it became coco crunch.

Masaya ako makasama sila, sobrang ang gaan sa feeling, puro tawanan. Although nung time na yun wala pa rin naman ako masyadong alam sa kanila, masaya lang ako spending light moments with them.

Yun nga lang, biglang afar na siya. Malungkot. Depressing. Pero parang naiisip ko wala akong karapatan ma-depress. Ang OA ko naman, hindi naman ako yung long-term niyang friend talaga, kundi sila. Pero nevertheless, I was still hoping we could bring back those moment nung nagsisimula pa lang ako makisalamuha sa kanilang tropa. And I guess sila din, yun ang naiisip nila. I don't even know the real reason na lumayo siya. Pero whatever the reason, I was still hoping she'll be bonding with us like those common days.

Malungkot, kase I know they miss each other, sila-sila, but then no one is brave enough to speak with each other, kung bakit nga ba malayo na. Ako naman eh ayuko maging paki-elamera. But, honestly, I want her back. As simple as that.

Kaya lang siguro nasabi yung "LAST" na yun, hindi dahil gusto maging last, pero I guess that's because nandun yung feeling na parang fear of rejection, na baka hindi na talaga pwede ibalik. Pero, tingin ko, everybody will agree with me, na MISS ka na namin. As in, sana, biglang *poof*, ka-bonding ka na lang sana namin ulit. As in. As in, nasabi ko na bang, AS IN?


Another big deal na pinagdadaanan ko ngayon eh gutom na ako. Pramis kanina pa. Arrgghh, pero di ko alam kakainin ko. Laki ng problema noh? Hindi kase ako nakapag-dinner, at kanina, punong puno ng kape yung tsan ko, kaya di na talaga. Pero ngayon, gutom na ko.

Holo! Makatulog na nga.


**********